Last Day in My City - First Day of Odyssey
April 12, 1990.
This was the sixth day of September - the sixth day since
Hitler's army started raining bombs on Poland, their tanks advancing from
the South, West and North. There was no panic in Warsaw where I and my
family lived, even though the city was bombed from the first day.
The city was criss-crossed by anti-bomb trenches dug by the
population in anticipation of the war. This effort was well organized,
and everybody was expected to spend at least one hour digging ditches
in one's neighborhood.
There was a wave of enthusiasm when, on the third of September,
three days after the start of invasion. England and France declared war
on Germany, fulfilling the treaty of mutual assistance.
Ecstatic crowds gathered in front of the British embassy,
and optimism was the mood of the day; cooler heads, however, realized
that Western powers (if I may use this oxymoron) were powerless and could
not have any effect on the short term outcome of the present fight.
With the declaration of neutrality by Roosevelt and recent
non-aggression Soviet-German pact the political background was simple
we were left to ourselves.
The Polish army and the Air Force could not dream of stopping
the Germans; however, there mere spots of heroic resistance: Warsaw defended
itself longer than France (and paid for it dearly) and the Northern military
outpost at Baltic sea, Westerplatte, the first to be attacked and greatly
outmanned, fought off the attackers with great courage. In the rest of
the country the forces were soon in disarray and retreat.
However, let's go back to Warsaw.
I was the oldest
of the three children, all sons. The youngest, Jerzy nine years younger
than I, was a medical student and lived with mother. The middle brother,
Bronislaw, four years older, was married, without children. I was divorced
and my son Karol, 11 years old lived with his mother, who had remarried.
I was working as an engineer in a manufacturing plant, located in Praga,
suburb of Warsaw, on the opposite [Eastern] side of the Vistula River.
On the fifth day of the war I went to see my former wife,
who together with our son was temporarily staying with her parents. When
I arrived there, an air raid was just being called off and I found the
two leaving the trench. I have to mention here, that more from stupidity,
than bravery, I did not pay attention to air raid sirens.
She was frightened by the experience, and was still jittery
when I talked to her. I suggested that her parent's home was not the safest
haven, since it was located close to a bridge, a likely target for the
bombs; if she had to stay there then I wanted to transfer Karol to my
mother's home; and so I did.
The same evening at my mother's, where I was going to stay
overnight, I received a phone call from Elias, my friend and schoolmate
from Warsaw Polytechnic. He told me that he and his wife, like many other
people, decided to leave the city.
The German troops were approaching Warsaw from three sides,
and the only escape route left was in the Eastern direction. Elias said
that he had a car to his disposal and was offering me two seats if I would
decide to join him.
This was a very generous offer - very few people had cars
and many were leaving on bicycles, some by horse and buggy, but most were
simply walking.
I asked for
two hours for the answer.
I did not contemplate
leaving, and the opportunity caught me unprepared. There were several
things to consider. If I were going to leave, the only natural thing was
to use the second seat for Karol.
As far as safety was concerned at the time, the crowded roads
were intensively bombed to disrupt communications, and to knock down telegraph
poles and wires. .
After the city will fall, I thought, some order will be restored
and life should become fairly normal.
My problem was that I had not read “Mein Kampf”
and I still remembered the time when during the First World War the Germans
occupied Warsaw. I distinctly recollect the day when in 1915 they took
the city from the Russians.
I was 11 years
old; it was in the morning, I was standing on my bed in the nightshirt,
jumping from excitement as I watched through the window German troops
marching order1y in the street.
They occupied the city for about three years; they were arrogant
and rude, there were hardships and shortages, but the population was left
alone and there were not any wanton killings.
But let's go back to my problem a Quarter of the century
later. Rather than taking my eleven year old son on unsafe roads to an
unknown destination, would it not be safer for him to stay in town with
his mother and the rest of the family?
I phoned the
plant manager (who was also the Owner), to find out what his plans were.
Director (let's call him that was a very fine, wise and friendly man,
a few years older than I. We had a good relationship, and I had great
confidence in his integrity. I discussed with him my dilemma and enquired
about his plans regarding the factory. His decision was to continue the
operation; he will be in the plant in the morning. By that time I made
already my mind - "I shall be there too" I told him.
“Well," he warned me, "it may happen, that you will
regret your decision, but if you do come, bring with you some personal
things you may need if the bridges should be destroyed and you might have
to stay here overnight or longer".
I called Elias
to tell him that I decided to stay. And here I have to make another digression.
Several months later I met Elias and his wife in Vilno, Lithuania
and learned that their plan to travel by car did not materialize after
all. And this freed me from the torment of a doubt: "Perhaps, if my decision
were different, if I had decided to go by car, then may be a dear for
me life would be saved?"
Now, back to the besieged Warsaw.
As I said, Karol and I were staying overnight at my mother's.
Next morning, I borrowed my mother's knapsack.
"Are you leaving town?" she asked. "Not that I plan to,"
I said. "I am going to stop at my place on the way to the plant in order
to pick up a few things I may need in case I shall be stuck on the other
side of the river."
I bid her and
Jurek goodbye, kissed Karol and went out to wait for the streetcar. Karol
came out on the balcony and was waving to me. After I boarded the car
and stood on the open platform he kept on waving until the car rounded
the corner. It was something unusual in this long goodbye -- like a parting
farewell; it might have been a child's premonition, because this was in
fact the last time we ever looked at each other.
When I arrived to the plant, Praga was heavily bombed. I
saw a German plane hit the ground in flames, close to our position. It
soon became obvious that concentration of people in a small area was too
risky, and Director decided to empty the building.
At noon the plant was closed. I stood outside the gates,
watching people filing out; the faces were grim, some women were crying.
The office employees, an old journeyman, who lived on the premises, the
Director and I remained in the building.
Director, who was a bachelor, lived with his mother and two
sisters. The day before the three, his mother and sisters, left Warsaw
by car. Now he himself decided to leave the city too. But the tank of
his car was empty -- he used gas from his car to fill up his mother's,
and it was impossible to get gasoline in the city now.
It was getting late. The building had some living quarters
and I decided to stay overnight; so did Director.
At midnight we listened to the news: it was shattering, though
not totally unexpected: "It happened," we were told, "what can happen
in every battle, the enemy broke through our defenses and is approaching
Warsaw." All able bodied men were ordered to leave the city immediately
and to attempt to join the armed forces.
This was the sixth day of the war.
I made several
phone calls. I phoned my married brother, pulled him out of bed and told
him what was announced. It was news to him, and he wanted to join me.
I called my
mother: during the day Mira (my former wife) took Karol to her apartment.
I wanted to talk to Jurek, my youngest brother, but he was in the hospital
on duty. Mother will have him get in touch with me. “God bless you
Stefciu,” was her farewell.
I also phoned
Mira: Karol was asleep and I did not want to wake him. I bid her goodbye.
Jurek called from the hospital. He, a medical student, was
needed and couldn't leave now, but, he said, he'd leave later, when free.
For his sense of duty, noble as it was, he paid with his
life. He ended in the Jewish ghetto, participated in the uprising there,
attended to the wounded in a provisional "hospital" room and was blown
up by the Germans together with the building. He died fighting.
Bronek came to the plant and brought keys to the car owned
by his father-in-law’s tannery, which he managed. We were joined
by the director's family friend, a young chemist, and walked to the car.
I rolled it
out and drove outside of city limits. There the car stalled: its tank
was empty. We left the car and started walking fast.
It was two o'clock in the morning.
And thus my odyssey began.
Trudging East - My Race With the Hun
May 4, 1990.
After leaving besieged Warsaw on the sixth day of the war
(or was it seventh, since we left two hours after midnight), the four
of us, director, chemist, my brother Bronek and I walked through the night
on the highway. It was early, since all we heard in the darkness was the
rustle of a moving throng of people, a silent human river. Those whom
we could see around us were mostly men, some on bicycles. Occasionally
a car was trying to make its way ahead.
I noticed a
dentist I knew, who was walking beside a tri-wheeler ridden by his wife.
The front cart was filled with the tools of his profession. Although everyone
here was touched by a drama, this was a vivid illustration how uprooted
people's lives can become in a span of few days.
In the morning, tired and sleepy, we arrived to a village.
We asked a group of local people for a place to lie down and sleep - a
barn with hay perhaps. They hesitated, they mere told to watch out for
spies and saboteurs; they checked our identifications (as if this could
prove anything) and, as we suggested, let us sleep in a clean barn.
Barns were going to be our master bedrooms for nights to
come.
The highway we were traveling on, was one of the major ones
leading from Warsaw toward a city of Lublin, some 100 miles South-East
from the capital. This city of 100,000 was inside of the so-called "Triangle
of Defense" and it was to be the seat of the government in case of war.
As we were instructed to join the armed forces, there is
where we expected to obtain further instructions.
The weather was good, the proverbial "golden Polish autumn,"
the road was winding its way between fields of wheat, still standing,
or harvested, or in dense forests of pine and oak.
Besides the cities, the highways were the main target of
the Luftwaffe. In case of a raid everybody ran off the highway afield
(always to the side opposite to the telegraph poles) and lay flat on the
ground.
Once I saw an incendiary attack on a village; there were
many small sticks vertically falling on the ground; I heard and saw them
sear everything on contact, saw people running out of burning houses.
One woman threw a large pillow out of a window and jumped after it, making
a soft landing.
It took us four or five days to reach Lublin. On the way
we ate vegetables pulled from the ground in abandoned gardens and slept
mostly in empty barns.
Speaking of shelter I remember one incident. It was a cool
evening and it started to rain. Looking for refuge we noticed an apparently
abandoned hut; there weren't any lights in the windows. The door was barred,
and when we tried to force it, a man came out from behind of the building,
where he was hiding - we must have been not the first ones who wanted
to use his hospitality.
He claimed that he had no key to the house and tried to slip
away.
I was angry;
I grabbed him by the coat, shook him a little, and told him that we didn't
want anything of his, except a roof for that night and fire for our potatoes.
He found the key.
In Lublin we did not find anything except commotion. The
Government wasn't there any longer, they escaped to Rumania, which had
a border with Poland, and then to France and later England. Crowds of
refugees, confused and rudderless were milling around. I spotted an acquaintance,
he looked despondent - he lost his wife in the confusion. Later he found
her.
Many cases like this ended less happily. My youngest brother,
Jurek, left Warsaw with his girlfriend and her sister in a horse drawn
carriage. They were lying on the ground during on air raid when a bomb
fell between them; nobody was hurt, but they panicked and scattered. The
girls were picked up by a passing military vehicle, the horses ran away
and Jurek confused and alone, returned to Warsaw. That cost him his life.
How do I know these details?
I know his side
of this incident because of my correspondence with my family in Warsaw,
I know their side because I met the girls later in Lwow.
A friend of
mine, whom I saw last year during my visit to Poland (1989) was similarly
separated from his wife; as a result he spent the war years in Wonow,
and she in Siberia. They were reunited after the war.
We stayed in Lublin only for few hours. From there our road
turned directly east. We found out, that several hours after we left,
Lublin was flattened by the bombs.
Now, 50 miles east of Lublin is a major river, Bug. When
we arrived there, the bridge was closed to civilians - the army was crossing
the river.
I felt trapped
by the obstacle to our escape. Cruising the dark and empty streets, while
the rest of the group was asleep in a rented room, I was thinking how
to break the barrier - perhaps we should rent a boat if the bridge would
not open the neat day.
On one of the streets there was a tavern, full of people.
The door to the tavern was ajar and together with the others I was listening
to the news on the radio. The news was that the bridge was now open to
the public again.
I rushed back
to our room, woke up the gang and shortly we were on the East side of
the river.
After the war it became apparent that the aerial attacks
were not to be carried beyond the river Bug. According to the Ribentrop
Stalin pact, the part of Poland east of Bug was to be occupied by
Russia.
Fifty miles past Bug we arrived to the city of Kowel. Here
two things happened: First, Bronek disappeared from the hotel room, which
we occupied. He went for a walk and did not return; naturally, we were
concerned. He showed up several hours later; he was grabbed and pressed
into a gang for digging anti-bomb ditches. He managed to escape.
Next, an army deserter, who needed money, sold us a military
carriage with a horse. This was a godsend, director had a bad knee which
bothered him recently, and this was slowing us considerably.
Now we drove day and night, rotating the drivers. We were
still 150 miles from the Russian border. On the second night I was holding
the reins, while the others were asleep. A truck full of Polish soldiers
was coming from the opposite direction, heading west. “Don't go
there,” they shouted. “The Russians are coming.” That
stopped us; we decided to reach the next village and settle there.
The village was not far. I am not certain of the name, I
think it was Maniewicze.
We found a room there in the home of a Jewish blacksmith
and his wife (a rare trade for a Jew in Poland). They were a friendly
couple, living with their 20 years old daughter.
We gave him the horse and carriage, which he quickly took
apart and hid; after all, it was a stolen government property.
The two women were trying to make our stay comfortable, we
had room and board.
We stayed there for about three weeks and had a chance to
relax; no more bombs, and no need to elude Nazis any more -- the feeling
of urgency disappeared. Of course, there was great uncertainty about the
Russians, but at this time we were weary and tired and refused to worry
- que sera,sera!
We were relaxed, played cards, enjoyed walks and even flirted
a little with the blacksmith's attractive daughter.
We saw more and more small groups of Polish soldiers, disoriented
and scared, trying to hide all traces of their military past. One of them
approached me, offering to sell his army coat. It was long and heavy,
and I bought it, since the days were getting cooler then. To be safe I
exchanged all the shiny, military buttons for prosaic leather studs.
So far no Russian soldiers showed up in our village.
When the railroad service was restored, (well, somewhat restored),
we decided to go to Lwow, a major city in Polish Ukraine.
The train came to the station four hours late. No tickets
were bought, nor sold; the ride was free. There was a large group of prospective
passengers gathered at the station. When the train arrived, young husky
women conductors hung by the handles at the entrance to the cars, with
their backs outside, pushing back people trying to get In with wild thrusts
of their behinds.
This was a choice assembly of wenches, but they were not
strong enough and we managed to get in.
So started our first encounter with Russian officialdom.
The cars were filthy, with all the windows broken. It took
hours before the train started rolling, but finally we reached Lwow, some
100 miles straight South, but 200 miles by rail.
It was October, 1939.
Lwow was one of the milestones in my odyssey.
P.S. My wife Lydia would not let me forget the importance
of Lwow in my life -- she was born there.
III. The Odyssey
Continued: Lwow
November 1990.
My brother Bronislaw, Director and I arrived in Lwow in the
middle of October, 1939, six weeks after we left the beleaguered Warsaw.
Lwow, city of 300,000 was one of the main centers of Polish
culture and learning, with many theaters, a university, an Institute of
Technology, one of the best in the country and with numerous publishing
houses.
On the surface life seemed to be normal in the city; Soviet
authorities were too busy rounding up Polish officials, police, political
leaders and other “enemies of the people” to bother with everyday
life of the common citizens.
There was no wanton mistreatment of people by Russian soldiers;
on the contrary, they were friendly, willing to talk and hopeful that
we appreciate the fact that they freed us from our “blood-sucking”
overlords. They sincerely believed that.
Neither was there any plunder, although Russians were running
from store to store as if they could not believe their eyes seeing the
abundance of the merchandise. But they never admitted their awe and their
standard statement, as if learned from their political manual was: “U
nas wsio iests,” we have everything. Still they kept on buying watches,
ladies' furs, lingerie, dresses, etc., which they sent home. One of them
explained to me why there were so many goods on the shelves: “Polish
working people are too poor to buy anything.”
The less friendly activity was the commandeering of private
cars. In a way this was a blessing for me: they needed people for maintenance
and repair of seized cars and I got a job at one of their stations. I
was no more a wanderer who could live off nature and sleep in barns; I
was in a large city and had to make a living for me and my brother.
Shortly mail service was restored and we could communicate
with Warsaw. Not much change in my family; I gave them our address.
A new type of
store appeared in the city: they were selling second - hand goods such
as furs, dresses, clocks, cameras etc. left there on consignment by people
who lost their jobs, or by the families of arrested officials.
Also, shortages started appearing - one could see more and
more lines in front of the stores. Russians were buying, many people were
hoarding and supplies obviously did not keep pace with demand.
We decided to outfit ourselves in new suits while they were
still available. The ones we wore, after weeks of traveling, sleeping
in barns, wallowing on muddy ground during air raids, were ready for retirement.
It should be explained that in Poland the ready-to-wear stores carried
low quality, ill fitting products. Most middle class men and women wore
custom made clothes. There were many good tailors and the cost was not
exorbitant.
I chose the
cloth and after the measurements were taken I made the down payment for
a suit. As it will be explained later, I never got to wear it.
In the meantime a heart-breaking episode took place.
One evening there was a knock: at the door and there stood
my former wife, Miriam with her husband, Leo, just arrived from Warsaw.
My first question was, “Where is Karol?" our twelve years old son.
"I was afraid that you will not approve", she said" but I
decided that it would be too great a risk to take him along, that he should
be safer with his two grandmothers. At the border the Germans were apprehending
Jews, beat them, often severely, and were turning them back.
"What about Leo?" I pointed at her husband. "There were four
of us women in the car, he was hiding under the seat; we wore long skirts
and covered him. At the border a German trooper opened the door and shouted
the question, ‘Are there Jews in the car?’ Luckily we got
through.”
Here an explanation is in order: Jewish men were circumcised,
the Gentiles in Poland were not. It was impossible for a male Jew to hide
his identity.
It was the end of November when a government 'ukase' was
announced: The Supreme Soviet was granting all refugees the 'privilege'
of becoming Soviet citizens. This will be a voluntary decision; however
those who will not take advantage of this opportunity will be considered
enemies of the people. The text of this announcement is not repeated here
verbatim, except for the last sentence. A deadline for handing over the
passports was also given.
This was a blow as well as the last straw, which in retrospect
saved our lives. It did not take us long to decide to escape this people's
paradise.
There were only two possibilities: one to go South to Rumania,
her border was only 188 miles away, but one would have to cross the Carpathian
mountains, covered heavily with snow this time of the year; the other
possibility, North, to the city of Wilno in independent Lithuania, a more
attractive choice, considering that Wilno belonged to Poland before Stalin
gave it to Lithuania, hence no language barrier there.
I went to Miriam
to find out what their plans were. They did not share our concern. “Don’t
you feel safe here?” asked Leo -- his name was Fokszanski, he was
a promising young Polish poet. “Perhaps” -- I said -- “but
I don’t want to be permanently tied to this country.”
They decided to stay. It was a fatal decision; year and a
half later, in June 1941 Hitler army attacked Russia. It took only few
hours and they overran Lwow. The Fokszanskis returned to Warsaw, ended
up in ghetto and shared the fate of the Six million victims of the Holocaust.
First thing for us to do was to move closer to the Lithuanian
border, which was 388 miles away, and arrange for the next step. We decided
to leave, even though our ordered suits were not ready, with the result
that we will present ourselves to the Lithuanians in our old bedraggled
attire.
We moved to Bialystok, a city of 68,888, only 48 miles from
the border. Here Bruce (Bronek) received a letter from his wife. Her father
passed away and the family’s tannery, which was still operating,
was now run by her and her two cousins.
Bruce decided to return to Warsaw and arranged for a guide
who would smuggle him across the border. However the guide did not show
up at the arranged time and place and Bruce decided to go alone. It was
a brave and daring decision, but he got through unscathed.
During the whole ghetto period he was of great help to our
family. He supported them - materially and during the critical period
of deportations to the death camps he was hiding them in the tannery.
In spite his effort he was the only member of my family who
survived the Holocaust. After the war, in 1945, I found him in the German
Displaced Persons camp and brought him, his second wife and a baby boy
to Vancouver in British Columbia, where we lived.
Now back to our problem.
My
Business Trip
December 20, 1990
We came to Bialystok
from Lwow in order to prepare for the border-crossing from Russian-occupied
Poland into free Lithuania. This was in the second part of December of
1939, the year of the Nazi invasion of Poland.
We made proper
contacts and found out where the center of the smuggling activity was.
I also learned that the typical cost of such enterprise exceeded my financial
resources.
Director wanted
to help. "I have here a promissory note from one of the retailers,"
he said, "who has a hardware store in this general area; the payment
was due last month, but because of the war I did not hear from them, neither
do I expect to hear now. If you could personally present this note to
them and cash it, we could split the money." .
I agreed, it was
an opportunity to earn the badly needed cash.
"Director"
is the name I am using here for my employer and friend, who left Warsaw
with me.
The promissory
note was a very common credit instrument in Poland. Basically it was a
check with delayed payment date, usually for three, or Six months. The
convenience of such note was that it was marketable: one could, upon endorsement,
sell it to a discounter for cash, or use it as payment for one's own purchases.
A additional safety for those accepting the second party note was, that
in case the original issuer would default, the next responsible party
for payment was the endorser.
So much for the
economic practices in pre-war Poland.
The hardware store
was located in the neighborhood of a small town Glebokie, some 400 kilometers
(250 miles) from Bialystok in the North-East corner of Poland. This narrow
strip of pre-war Poland was bordering with Lithuania, Latvia and Russia,
now totally in Russian hands. My destination point could be reached by
an eight hour night train ride, followed by a ten miles trek by horses.
The train was nearly
empty, dirty and cold. I wrapped myself in my coat up to my ears and managed
to doze for a few hours. From one passenger, who was acquainted with the
area, I obtained the address of a peasant, living close to the railway
station, who could give me a ride to the destination.
We arrived to Glebokie at early dawn. There was an unusual activity at
the station - it was full of Russian soldiers milling around, and of military
vehicles loaded with army equipment.
No sooner I stepped
down from the train, when I was detained by two non-uniformed characters.
They asked some questions, took me to a small building and told me to
wait there for the officer who, they said, was still asleep.
The room was nearly
empty, except for several chairs along the mall and a simple desk under
the window. I was not certain what was this all about, however I guessed
that the activity must have some military significance and I would have
to prove that I did not arrive here in the role of a spy.
Only later I was
told that this station was a transfer point for Russian troops and equipment
going to the Finnish front.
After consummation
of the Ribbentrop-Stalin pact by occupation of a part of Poland, Stalin
continued to shore up his frontiers by attacking Finland. The Finnish
border was too close to Leningrad for comfort, and after futile negotiations
with the Finns, Russians attacked on the last day of November, 1939, just
three weeks before my arrival there.
I also learned
that my interrogators were members of the NKUO (People's Commissariat
for Internal Affairs), the famous Stalin's secret police, and precursor
of the KGB.
The young officer
who entered the room wanted to know my reason for being there.
I showed him the promissory note, which was not known in the communist
economy, and tried, in my broken Russian, to explain to him its purpose.
He was intelligent, asked few questions and seeing the address on the
paper must have concluded that my presence there was justified.
After opening my
overnight bag he found inside a piece of sausage, remains of a loaf of
bread and a book. The book was "The Theory and Collection of Chess
Problems."
He studied the book thoroughly and for long time. Whether he was fascinated
by the problems, or was looking for a secret code I don't know.
It is a well known
fart that chess is very popular in Russia, one could say, it is a national
passion next to vodka. Every school and university has a chess club. Russia
boasts of a disproportional number of chess masters. I wouldn't be surprised
if the young officer had discovered in me a kindred soul. He, perhaps
reluctantly, returned the book and gave me instructions how to get to
the peasant's house.
The farmer was
away. "My husband is on the road with another traveler, I expect
him back around noon," said a pleasant looking young woman. She was
sweeping the clean, one room cabin. In the crib was a little baby. "Did
you have breakfast?," she asked and prepared for me a couple of eggs
with bread and milk. A neighbor dropped in for a chat, but my presence
must have discouraged gossips since she did not stay long.
Around two o'clock in the afternoon the man arrived. He was in an angry
mood. Upon arrival to the destination his party refused to pay. This time
the man demanded payment in advance and took me to the hardware store.
The weather was cold and windy and I arrived there half frozen.
The store was in
a building on the street level; the owners, an elderly couple and their
two sons lived on the second floor. The apartment was large, the furniture
and details pointing to a comfortably living family. They treated me to
hot tea, put me in front of the fireplace and told me their story:
Their business
was taken away from them without compensation by the local communist government
and given to be run to a group (they called it committee) composed of
their former employees. They forced the owners to pay from their own pocket
any business debts incurred before takeover. They also expropriated the
building and demanded that the owners pay rent for living on their own
property. "We are fortunate that we were not evicted," the owners
said. On top of it all, our older son was arrested; he was the manager
of the store and several years ago during employees' strike, he was crossing
the picket line and kept the store open. The employees now reported him
to the authorities who declared their son the enemy of the people and
accused him of 'grave provocation. In the communist language this is a
very serious crime.
They didn't feel,
the owners said, that it was their duty to pay the debts of the store
that did not belong to them any longer. .Of course if you shall go to
the committee they will force us to reimburse you, I was told.
I stayed in their
place overnight and for the first time in a long while had square meals
in a normal household.
This time my return
trip was uneventful, and I arrived to Bialystok with the promissory note
still in my pocket.
Director was disturbed
- "If I had known what was involved to get there, I would never have
suggested this to you" he said, and then added with a straight face:
"By the way, when you were away, it occurred to me that I still owe
you your salary for the unused vacations this year."
"Knowing how
scrupulous you are in paying your debts, I wouldn't dream of hurting your
feelings by declining your offer" said I with equally straight face.
We shook hands, smiling.
P.S. After I arrived
to the store owners' house with wet shoes from threading on snow, I tried
to dry them by sitting with my feet toward the fireplace. It turned out
that I have toasted my leather soles to a crisp rusk, and within several
days the soles cracked and disintegrated. This was the last echo of my
memorable business trip.
Wilno
- The Next Etape (Stage) of The Odyssey
February 1, 1991
When in January
1948 I crossed the border from Russian occupied Poland to Lithuania, she
was still a free country. From the time of union with Poland in 14th century,
the only period of independence Lithuania enjoyed were twenty two years
between the two world wars.
Before that the
country was polonized, russified and occasionally overrun by Germans,
until after world war one was given her liberty.
Wilno, a very old
city, founded in 18th and established in 14th century as capital of Lithuania,
shared with that country the vagaries of its history, with one exception:
when Lithuania achieved independence after world war one, Poland, who
was reborn then also, seized Wilno and kept it.
Now, this becomes
complicated:
After Hitler invaded
Poland, Stalin occupied her Eastern part, which included Wilno. He then,
magnanimously, offered the city to Lithuania.
And that was when
I came to Wilno, then called "Vilnius" by the new owners.
At that time it was a city of 288,888 with a majority of Poles and with
38% of Jews among them.
Linguistically
it was a real Tower of Babel.
The predominant
language was Polish, although Russian and German were also spoken. Jews
were communicating in Yiddish. The authorities forced on the newly acquired
city the Lithuanian language by requiring it to be used when dealing with
government offices; this was the law in the rest of Lithuania. The Lithuanian
language originated from Sanskrit, was mostly forgotten and used only
in back wood villages. Lithuania revived it after the First World War;
its non-existent grammar was written, and it was declared the official
language of the country to a considerable hardship for most residents.
There were in the
city several thousand refugees from Poland, mostly from Warsaw. A group
of them organized a social club, where they gathered, exchanged news,
or information about relatives and friends. I met there a number of people
I knew, or heard about. In my confusion of the first days in the city,
I was greatly helped by them. Some shared their Quarters with me, until
I could find my own place; others helped me with registration at the police,
somehow managing to ante-date my arrival, to make my stay legal.
The club also served
dinners. The cook was a middle age woman, from looks and demeanor similar
to the motherly Mrs. Bridges from Alistair Cook's "Upstairs-Downstairs."
With Jan, my schoolmate
from the Warsaw Institute of Technology, I rented a room in the house
of a Polish school teacher, living with his wife and a beautiful, but
aloof, daughter.
Soon my life became,
one could say, normal. I was offered a teaching position in Jewish Technicum
and took over two classes: "Strength of Materials" and "Machining
of Metals."
There was a problem,
however - the language in Technicum was Yiddish, one I did not know, at
home we spoke Polish.
In the short time
I had, a young teacher was trying to cram in my head conversational Yiddish
plus reading and writing, starting from Hebrew alphabet. As could be expected,
the results were meager; what helped me though was: first, Yiddish could
be considered a cousin of German language, which I knew; second, most
technical terms are international; third, all students knew Polish and
in emergency I could sneak in a Polish word or sentence.
And so, as I bravely
was trying to do my job, the school principal and the faculty were watching
my linguistic struggle with friendly smiles.
Beside the Technicum,
there were other responsibilities. We organized Vocational Training courses
for the refugees and I was the instructor in the Engineering Drawing,
and in Workshop Practice classes. The Technicum lent us their facilities.
With my finances
improved, I could afford to send food parcels to my family in the Warsaw
ghetto. My mother, with the characteristic trait of all mothers, in the
tragic situation in which she was, worried about me in her letters!
Some weeks later
I learned that the Lithuanian Government successfully concluded an agreement
with the Paris office of the Joint Distribution Committee to accept a
group of Jewish children from the Warsaw ghetto. J.D.C. guaranteed financial
support for the children and obtained a "sauf conduit" (safe
conduct permit) from the Germans.
Joint Distribution Committee was a central office for allocation of funds
donated by the American Jews.
I advised my mother
about this arrangement, and she succeeded in having my son Karol's name
included in the list of the children to be evacuated. Soon mother started
preparing clothes necessary for the boy's travel.
Alas, while there
was some dickering in Warsaw about who should chaperone the children in
their exodus to freedom, Paris fell to German army (June 14, 1940), the
financial guarantee was gone and Lithuania backed out from the agreement.
This was a heartbreaking blow.
Several weeks later
Lithuanian independence ended - the country was occupied and obligingly,
on August 3rd, incorporated into USSR as the 14th Republic.
Except for the
arrest of officials and politically exposed personalities, life in the
country did not change perceptibly. Lithuania was a food exporter, its
high grade meats and dairy products were famous, and the availability
of produce did not diminish.
However, noticeable
changes in the political views of some people could be observed.
For example, my landlord-professor, a devoted catholic and Polish patriot,
whom I would classify as a Tory, suddenly changed his political outlook:
I was told that in his class he openly professed the virtues of the communistic
system, to a great resentment of his students. I felt that in fear of
losing his position he was over-doing this declaration of loyalty to the
regime. It is not difficult to imagine his fate when a year late German
army over run Wilno in their thrust into USSR.
Similar shift in
political views, although much more discrete, I noticed in the principal
of Technicum.
The Club was a
very important factor in the lives of its members; it was more than a
social center - for many of us it was a substitute for a family. We were
spending there evenings together, holidays together, many ties and friendships
developed; no serious discords or rifts ever existed within our group,
discords which so often split emigrant communities.
But, what was even
more important, the Club was a center of information; in an extremely
volatile situation, one had to be abreast of events as they unfolded.
In the fall of
1948 incredible news was spreading: the Japanese consul in Kaunas, then
the capital of Lithuania, was granting transit visas for passage through
Japan. Of course one still needed a destination visa.
Rely on ingenuity
of desperados who try to break the walls of the cage. Somebody discovered
that the Dutch consul would stamp in a person's passport a sentence: "No
visa is necessary for landing in Curacao."
The stamp told
the truth, but not the whole truth; what it should say, and did not, was:
"No visa is necessary for landing in Curacao, but the permission
of the Governor is."
Now anybody who had such an incomplete stamp in the passport could claim
Curacao as the destination.
Curacao is an island
in Dutch West Indies in the Caribbean Sea.
So far so good,
but nobody could leave USSR without an exit permit, and everybody knew
that applying for exit permit entailed risk of persecution, and at best
it took a very long time to get one. On top of that, rumors circulated
that secret police was taking pictures of anybody entering the Japanese
consulate.
And yet some of
the refugees got Japanese visas and filed applications to NKUD, the secret
police, for exit permits.
My friend, director,
could not make up his mind about the visa; I asked him to let me know
if and when he should decide to take it, I would follow - I had great
confidence in his judgment.
One evening after
dinner I was sitting at the Club and was watching a man, who just came
from Kaunas and was distributing passports to a group of people. He was
a refugee, a lawyer, commuting between Wilno and Kaunas and for several
rubbles apiece getting the Japanese visas for people who did not want
to do it personally.
An engineer, sitting with me (his name was Akst, I remember) made a remark:
"Look at these idiots, how futile their effort is." He did not
know how tragically wrong he was.
Among those retrieving
their passports I noticed my friend, the director.
"I am sorry," he said when I approached him. "I forgot
to tell you that I decided to take the visa, but this guy is going back
to Kaunas tomorrow morning, give him your passport and he will get your
visa."
In the meantime
the man had left. I obtained his address, got my passport and went to
see him, but he was away. I waited for him in front of the house until
late hours - he did not return. By that time I became nervous - now, once
I decided to get the visa I did not want to miss it.
Next morning I got up early and, before going to Technicum, went to see
the lawyer. He was shaving, took my passport and said that he will be
back the next day.
And so he was.
He told me that the consulate was already permanently closed.
"However,"
he said. "I found the address of the secretary of the consulate,
went to his house, and had him stamp the visa in your passport. He demanded
extra three rubles, which I paid. I don't know whether you approve of
that, but if not, then you don't have to pay me anything beyond my usual
fee." A wonderful man, but a real lawyer, who felt guilty for spending
the extra money without mandate.
Little we knew
that if not for his extra effort and the risk he took by paying the total
sum of three rubles, I would not be writing these memoirs today.
To everyone's surprise
a number of people who filed the application for exit permit received
them; however, persons Known as big land owners, former industrialists,
bankers, and similar plutocrats, were refused.
My decision was
not an easy one to make - in contrast with most of the refugees my life
in Wilno was for all practical purposes normal; I had work in my professional
line and as an engineer belonged to a privileged class in USSR. I also
would be closer to my family in Warsaw if I stayed, although I could not
do much for them - latest food parcels sent to them were not delivered.
There was also
another factor for me to consider.
Approximately at
that time, the authorities announced, the way they did earlier in Lwow,
that all foreigners were granted - as they called it - the privilege of
becoming the USSR citizens and that the decision was voluntary; however,
the announcement said, those who will not avail themselves of this privilege
will declare by their choice to be enemies of the people. There was also
a deadline for filing applications.
Now the problem
was that if my request for exit permit were rejected, I would miss the
deadline for citizenship and would become an outcast, probably landing
in Siberia.
To make the long
story short, I cut the Gordian knot, filed an application for exit permit,
and shortly afterwards was called for an interview with NKUD. I remember
every word of that meeting.
The room was small
and fairly dark; the man was of middle age, rather nondescript. He spoke
Polish. He started with a question" What is your attitude toward
our system?"
This was not easy to answer in my circumstance - I did not intend to extol
the communist dictatorship, neither to lay open my true feelings about
it. I bypassed his question, but paid him some tribute: "Being here,"
I said, "I feel much safer, than I would if I were in my hometown
now."
And here is the
verbal exchange which followed:
He: "I'll give you the permit, provided that you will help us."
I: "How can I help you?"
He: "After you reach your destination we'll get in touch with you
and will expect you to give us information we may need."
I: "If this is the condition, then I rather stay here, but...,"
I added, "I would not be happy."
He was blunt: "If you should dissent they'll send you to Siberia."
I was angry and blew up: "You deport to Siberia men, women and children
and some of them survive, so would I!" Then I got up, reached for
my hat and turned toward the door.
He stopped me and said "OK, you'll get the permit," then signed
some papers. I was elated and against my better judgment shook his hand.
N.B. I should mention
that in Europe men always wore hats. In those days people walked - private
cars were a rarity; then how otherwise would you greet friends you were
passing, if not by tipping your hat?
Unlike in the rest of USSR, the Lithuanian republic issued several thousand
exit permits within few weeks. My explanation is that the local apparatchiks,
besides serving their communist rulers, were also Lithuanians, eager to
get rid of the influx to their small country of, mostly Jewish, foreigners.
Two weeks later
I received my permit; it was a very strong document: it contained my photograph,
directed me to leave the country within two weeks from the date of issue
and, most important, instructed all government functionaries to facilitate
my exit from the country.
At that time my
life could be compared to a hurdle race; every so often one had to clear
another barrier. My next hurdle was Intourist.
No foreigner could
travel in USSR without the" protection" of Intourist, the official
travel agency. An American tourist, for instance, who wanted to visit
Russia had to travel under guidance and control of the Intourist. He paid
the fees in dollars: that covered travel expenses, food coupons, tickets
to musea, concerts, and so forth.
We were not American tourists; still we were required to pay to Intourist
two hundred dollars for taking us to Wladivostok: and putting us on the
boat to Japan.
Possessing dollars
in USSR is a crime; a person would end in jail if caught with dollars
in the pocket; but if one managed safely to bring dollars to the Intourist
office and put them on a counter, one was treated with respect, even though
they knew that the dollars were bought on the black market.
To buy two hundred
dollars on the black: market would cost eight hundred rubles, a fourfold
price; I had some savings, but far from that amount.
Many other refugees
were facing similar problem, and were desperately looking for solution.
Some, who had friends or relatives in United States would wire a request
for a loan, asking that the money be paid in to the New York office of
Intourist, who would then notify their office in Wilno that the money
was received, thus settling the matter.
Others would obtain
money by means of the so called "transfer," an honest, although
illegal method, which worked as follows: If I had a friend or a relative
in the U.S. and you had one there too, and if my party paid your party
some monies in the U.S., then in return you will pay the same amount to
me in Wilno.
There were dramas
too: a couple I knew, a Polish lawyer and his wife, both in their fifties,
could not gather enough travel money for both of them - consequently he
took his life so that at least she could leave.
I met the widow
later in Canada; she became a dear friend of ours. She was bearing her
tragedy bravely.
In view of the
two-week deadline there was not much time for me to deliberate; the 6500
miles by train with transfers would last at least twelve to thirteen days.
With my roommate
Jan, who was in an identical situation, we decided to bypass the Intourist
and travel through Russia and Siberia without their help, paying our way
in rubles. We knew we were taking a risk, but we were desperate.
I wrote letters
to my mother in Warsaw and my former wife in Lwow. I sold in a hurry as
much as I could of my possessions, bought the cheapest suitcase (which
according to the seller was guaranteed to serve me safely to any destination
- and it did, but no farther than that, since as soon I reached Canada
several months later, it gave up the ghost and split in all the seams.)
We decided that
taking the train to Moscow from Wilno was risky, it would be too obvious;
we decided to take it from a small town outside of the Lithuanian border.
On the eve of our departure director, who was still waiting for his exit
permit, came to wish me good luck. He gave me a ten dollar bill, "You
will need it to pay the Japanese boat fare," he said. I sewed it
in my shoulder pad. My Warsaw friend and a schoolmate Elias, who decided
not to take the Japanese visa, brought a bottle of wine.
Next morning our train crossed the Lithuanian border.
It was late March
of 1941.
And thus ended
the eighteen months long, most eventful period of my travel.
P.S. Three months
later Hitler took Vilno.
Musical Interludes
The life of a refugee
on the run, in the turmoil of rapid historical changes taking place around,
is harsh and primitive. Holding ones head above the water is the main
and predominant occupation.
In the 21 months
between leaving Warsaw and safely landing in Canada, I became lean and
trim, lost 40 pounds, and never was sick even one day; physically I was
in great shape. Moreover, among the multitude of other refugees I met,
or was living amidst, I don't remember a single person becoming ill. It
was as if the nature wanted to invest each of us with extra strength and
resistance to help in surviving the hardships.
During that time,
and particularly the hardest period, between Warsaw and Wilno all aspects
of cultural, finer parts of life were forgotten - not only that they were
not available they were literally forgotten, totally out of mind.
Things like normal
food, hot bath, clean bed, let alone entertainment, music, did not exist
and were not missed - we lived from day to day. Even sensitivity to women's
beauty and charm deserted me totally.
My landing in Wilno,
on the other hand, was like sailing into calm water of a bay, after crossing
stormy sea in a leaky boat. The uncertainty about future still existed
(particularly after the Russians occupied Lithuania Six month later),
but the immediate danger was no more - or so I thought.
I described my
life in Wilno in another place, suffice it to say that having gained a
good position in my profession, living in comfortable quarters and amidst
a group of friends, my life became much more regular.
Among our bunch
of refugees (we called it "The Club") there was a young lady
musician, a violinist. She was shy, but with help of a friendly pressure
she agreed to play for us.
We turned over
the largest room of our club into a poor man's concert hall, with people
sitting on chairs, tables and on the floor.
The performance
was a real feast for all of us - she turned out to be a talented virtuoso
with ample repertoire: in the several concerts she gave we heard Beethoven,
Tchaikovsky, Schubert and other classical composers.
It was as if a
new leaf in our story were turned over, as if we mounted one step higher
in the quality of life.
The husband of
our musician, a short man with a gentle, smiling face was totally devoted
to his young wife; his obvious pride in her was fully justified.
A happenstance
let me enjoy another musical experience. Jan and I were introduced to
a lady who happened to be piano music teacher. We spent some time in conversation
with her. She was born in Wilno and lived with her elderly parents. We
were invited by her for a Sunday afternoon tea; it looked as if another
musical event was looming.
Alas, our gracious
hostess politely, but firmly declined our pleas to play; whether this
was a modesty, or stage fright it was never explained.
And now, to save
the day, enters the man of few words, my good friend, Jan. He was my schoolmate
in Warsaw Institute of Technology, and for the last several months my
roommate - and only then, that Sunday afternoon I found out that he was
an accomplished pianist!
From the moment
his strong hands struck the first powerful chords of Chopin's Polonaise,
my heart started melting. He played for a long time, occasionally helped
by our hostess' music sheets.
We met there regularly,
and those weekly afternoons were a joy I was always looking toward to.
Our hostess was
an intelligent, well read, pleasant to talk with person, with a cheerful,
but serious disposition. I was attracted to her and the two of us met
several times in the park for an evening stroll.
In one of these
meetings I kissed her and she warmly reciprocated. And then she said:
"Please help me, I don't want to complicate my life." She told
me that she was engaged to be married.
That ended our rendezvous, but not our afternoon tea-for-three, which
lasted until Jan and I left for Japan.
They were bright
spots in my life in Wilno, and even today, after all those years, my heartbeat
accelerates when I think of this episode.
Sneaking
Across USSR
March 10, 1991
While hundreds
of refugees were shepherded by Intourist on the way from Wilno to Moscow
and further to Vladivostok, we, my friend Jan and I chose a more affordable,
although less legal way. We decided to travel without the friendly help
of the Intourist and pay our way in rubles, the way the citizens of USSR
do, rather than in the black market purchased dollars, as demanded by
the Russian travel agency. I should mention that the train travel in USSR
was inexpensive.
To avoid visibility
we traveled to Lida, a small town outside of the Lithuanian republic,
in order to start the trip to Moscow from there.
My experience so
far was that in the flight from Warsaw the road was paved with obstacles,
sometimes trivial, more often threatening. So it did not surprise me that
no sooner we stepped down from the train in Lida a uniformed man stopped
us and without explanation demanded that we follow him to the police station.
He was in a hurry and I, with my heavy suitcase and a knapsack, could
hardly keep up with him. At the station he made me open the suitcase pulled
out a stack of neatly folded shirts and accused me of smuggling. After
I showed him some threadbare areas on the shirts he lost interest and
without a word, let alone apology, turned his back and walked away, leaving
me with the messed up contents of my suitcase on the floor.
There was some
justification for his suspicions, if not for his rudeness. Lithuania,
the newly acquired republic was a horn of plenty, as compared with the
rest of the USSR (and still is, fifty years later as I write this now).
The full shelves of food and consumer articles, attracted people from
neighboring republics. They were returning home carrying bags bulging
with purchased goods, most of which landed later on the black market.
Authorities were trying to stop that traffic.
We bought the tickets
without any problems and soon were sitting in the train to Moscow where
the Trans-Siberian line (called by the Russians "The Great-Siberian")
starts. There were three trains a week from Moscow, and the memory cells
in my brain insist that they were scheduled on Monday, Wednesday and Friday,
and that our nightly train to Moscow was to arrive in Moscow on Wednesday,
the day of the Trans-Siberian's departure.
Half way to Moscow,
at a major stop in Smolensk, Jan, who was a man of few words, jumped without
warning from the train, ran to the station building and shortly emerged
with tickets in his hand, motioning to me to leave the wagon. I grabbed
our knapsacks (the suitcases were in the baggage car) and followed Jan.
He discovered that alongside ours was standing an express train to Moscow
and arranged the transfer from our slow train to the express. This was
an adroit move.
It was imperative
that we should not miss the Wednesday departure of the Trans-Siberian,
otherwise we would have to stay in a Moscow hotel. A well known fact was
that hotels were reporting new arrivals to police, particularly the two
strange looking foreigners with heavy suitcases. In all hotels the secret
police placed their own agents as clerks, porters, or cleaning personnel.
These people entered the rooms, ransacked the drawers and suitcases and
reported everything to their bosses.
Any contact with
the police would be disastrous to us, illegal travelers, trying to sneak
unnoticed across the USSR through the 6500 miles and eight time zones;
hence the earlier we arrive to Moscow, the less chance there will be to
miss the Wednesday train to Vladivostok.
The express train
was full and the only available tickets Jan could get was a private compartment;
it turned out to be a luxurious cabin-sleeper with own bathroom. We felt
like lords.
When dinner time
came, we left the compartment. Among passengers passing through our wagon
on the way to the restaurant car, I saw familiar faces; a woman acquaintance
noticed us: "What are you doing here?" she asked, "This
is an Intourist wagon, and this is our Intourist guide," she pointed
discreetly to an approaching man.
This was a bolt
from the blue. Trying to control our panic, we withdrew with a measured
haste to our compartment, locked the door and pulled down the window curtains.
We were not disturbed till the end of this journey and the only, terrifying,
knock on the door was by the steward, who came to make our beds.
I have to mention
that in the feverish preparations for the trip in Wilno we did not forget
about our stomachs: each of us had in the knapsack a half of a smoked
ham, so that we could easily put up with the loss of the restaurant dinner.
We arrived to Moscow
in early morning. The station for the Vladivostok train was in other part
of the city. We decided against waiting for our luggage from the slow
train and took the subway to the Trans-Siberian station.
The newly built
subway was a pride of the Moscovites. It was richly appointed, with the
walls faced with different kinds of marble and sculptures displayed in
each station. The stations were large, well lighted and clean.
The Trans-Siberian
ticket office was closed, to be opened at one o'clock the sign said. We
had several hours on our hands. I wrote a letter to my friend, whom I
called director (and who was still waiting in Wilno for his exit permit),
included our luggage tickets in the letter and asked him to retrieve our
suitcases when passing through Moscow. (He did, and brought our luggage
to Japan).
I also sent him
a wire - our arrangement was that I should wire him whenever possible,
so he would know our whereabouts.
We hired a taxi
and asked to be given a short tour of Moscow. The rapid pace of this review
left in my memory general impression of a city with many beautiful churches,
monuments, musea and other buildings of distinction, wide avenues and
parks - in short, a city which deserves a less hurried visit. While my
memory did not retain many details, one picture is still in front of my
eyes - that of the unforgettable Red square with the heavy wall of the
Kremlin on the hill, with the magnificent Lenin's Mausoleum in front of
it, and of the eight-church complex of the St. Basil's Cathedral with
the colorful onion domes.
We returned to
the ticket office before one o'clock to find a multiply-coiled snake of
people in front of the wicket. What was still worse was that these people
already had their tickets and were lining up for the reserve seats. They
had priority and no tickets could be sold until these passengers were
dealt their seats, provided that any were left.
It looked hopeless,
we realized that we had very little chance to get on the Wednesday train
and decided to talk to the stationmaster. We hoped that the directive
on our exit permits for all government agents to help us meet the deadline
for our departure will make proper impression. It did. The manager, a
stocky woman in uniform, squeezed us into the queue close to the window,
causing angry murmurs, went behind the partition and said something to
the clerk.
When our turn came
and passengers standing behind us saw that we were handing money to the
girl in the wicket, a great riot-like outcry rose - an expression of protest,
unheard of then in that dictatorial empire. But we got our tickets!
Out of the three
weekly trains, two were regular, with eleven-day and one was express train
11'ith seven-day duration of travel to Vladivostok. We were in the slow
train.
Our car was full
of passengers in open, four-person compartments. Sleeping bunks were of
the drop-leaf type, located above passenger's heads, with short curtains
for privacy.
Our co-travelers
were a mixed group: some military men and women, some looking like mechanics,
others like clerks, or officials - anybody's guess.
In the compartment next to ours was a military man with wife and a school-age
boy; on the other side our neighbors were young Air force pilots and a
young girl in uniform. This was the only cheerful compartment, the rest
of the passengers were rather somber. In our enclosure were two non-descript
men.
In spite of the
lengthy confinement I never heard quarrels, or even arguments. There were
no personal questions; the closest to such question was when a gentleman,
perhaps an official, if judging by appearance and demeanor is allowed,
said to me: "You must have an important assignment, being sent to
this restricted naval base." To completely satisfy his curiosity
I said "Yes."
It should be explained
that nobody in USSR can travel without authorization, even a vacationer,
let alone one traveling to a restricted zone.
The military man
sitting with his family next to us offered me one hundred rubles for my
flashlight. "I am being sent to a post far North, to a desolated
place and I won't be able to get a flashlight there," he said. "What
about the batteries?" I was trying to discourage him. "These
I can get in the military warehouse," he answered. I told him that
the flashlight was useful to me at night when the lights were dimmed,
and high in the bunks was nearly totally dark; I promised to leave it
with him at the end of the trip - "And forget about money,"
I said.
This was not a
generosity on my part - if he offered me thousand rubles it would not
make any difference.
Nobody leaving
the country was allowed to take Russian money abroad. One had to leave
it with the border inspectors - of course, they gave you a receipt, so
you could claim the money when you return. Similarly women and men could
keep only three pieces of jewelry of one's choice. the rest was taken
away - and again one gets a receipt.
.
The other neighbors, the pilots occasionally drew me into their company,
and we sang together: I happened to know one of the popular Russian' songs
with modified satirical lyrics, which they enjoyed.
I said that the
people on the train were somber; they were, and I believe that this was
an indication of a chronic weariness. Their difficult living condition
must weigh heavily on them; they are spiritually tired. When they resort
to Vodka, to escape reality, their true nature floats to the surface:
they come alive, become cordial, open-hearted and sentimental, sometimes
to tears.
I hope to be excused
for this non-professional digression into psycho-analysis, but after the
19 months of brushing shoulders with the Russians I got to understand
and to like them.
Our breakfasts,
lunches and evening snacks were ham canapés with tea: Bread and
tea we bought on the train; dinners we ate in the restaurant - far. For
the most time only fish was available. Majority of men diners drank vodka
with food.
Of course the time
schedule of the meals was European: what I call here lunch was a second
breakfast, between ten and eleven o'clock, the dinner at three, and the
evening snack was a light supper at eight, for us - ham canapés
again.
We had numerous
short stops on our way: one travel-book said that there are 91 stops between
Moscow and Vladivostok. Only three of them are imprinted in my memory.
One was when I
unwisely descended from the train in order to taste fresh air and to loosen
the leg muscles, and was immediately grabbed by a policeman, and taken
to his sentry shack. Fortunately, after checking my documents he released
me soon enough to let me jump on the train before it left.
The other stop
I remember was at Birobidzhan.
Birobidzhan was
created by USSR in 1928 as an autonomous Jewish region, with official
Yiddish language. It was not an idea of a Ghetto. It was meant to be an
alternative to Zionism. Birobidzhan is a rough country, never really developed
as a livable center, and about thirty years later the project was abandoned.
In the station
I saw people climbing into the restaurant car trying to buy bread. .
The third memorable
stop was Baikal Lake. This huge, 400 miles long lake is a sacred area
for some Mongol tribes. It is said that it contains one sixth of the total
fresh water on the earth. Over 300 rivers and mountain streams are draining
into it, with only one outlet, the Angara River, (close to the train station.)
Presently it is said to be totally polluted!
We arrived to Vladivostok
after midnight and checked in a hotel. Early next morning after a quick
breakfast in a nearby coffee shop we went to the waterfront to enquire
about the tickets for the Japanese boat.
Oh ye innocents!
There was little
activity in the harbor - we saw several dock workers only. They explained
to us that all boardings on foreign vessels were handled by the Intourist.
The Intourist office
was in the Intourist hotel in town.
The receptionist
looked bewildered when two unchaperoned foreigners asked her for two tickets
to Japan. "Where are you from?" she asked. If we told her that
we came from Mars, she would not be any more surprised. "We came
from Moscow," I said. It was the truth, but not the whole truth.
She disappeared
behind the door and returned with a young man of pleasant appearance.
"This is our office manager," she said.
He bid us to sit
down. I told him the whole story. The young man reached for the phone
and verified with the hotel the time of our arrival - he wanted to be
satisfied that we did not have time to loiter in this restricted military
zone.
He said that we
have perpetrated non-acceptable illegal acts and should be sent back.
I argued that it was the Intourist demand of payment in dollars from the
residents which was illegal.
This controversy
lasted for some time, with the manager obviously not certain what to do:
however all this time he was patient and polite. Finally he said: "I
am going now to the harbor to transfer to the boat the newly arrived party
of refugees, I win inform officials of your presence. In the meantime
I want you to stay in this hotel, your posses ions will be brought here.
You'll hear from me."
It was ten o'clock
in the morning; the boat was to leave at ten at night.
In the hotel we
met another refugee, one Mr. K., who was staying there for some time,
trying to free his wife, deported to Siberia. He seemed to be it man of
some means, which must have helped in the resolution of his problem. I
saw both of them later in Japan.
In his room I removed
my ten dollars from the shoulder pad, hoping that I may need them for
the boat ticket. The day was long, most of the time we spent in the lobby,
or in the hotel restaurant, where we had our meals. I also sent a wire
to director.
Since the evening
was drawing on and we did not hear from the manager, at eight o'clock
we sent a message to him through his secretary in order to remind him
of our existence.
Half an hour later
a jeep came to take us to the harbor. The driller was instructed to collect
from each of us seven dollars for the boat fare. This was good news; I
gave him my share, but Jan was in trouble.
He did not have
dollars. How did it happen?
Well, Jan, man
of few words was also a man of his own mind. Back in Wilno, where everybody
knew that the boat fare to Japan was seven dollars, Jan decided to buy
English pounds, because the black market exchange rate for pounds was
better, then for dollars.
Our driver did
not want to accept pounds; his instructions were seven dollars, period.
Now Jan was in
panic; he ran up the stairs in leaps to look for Mr. K, while we were
waiting in the jeep. He got the dollars, after Mr. K skinned him shamelessly
on the rate and, breathless, he joined us.
In the harbor a
line of passengers was stretched for inspection with open suitcases at
a long counter. We joined them and laid our bags for examination, when
I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and saw two tall, Cossack-like
uniformed men in high fur hats - a rather scary sight in our circumstance.
They ushered us
to a room, separated by a curtain, the Intourist manager was there too,
and told us that that we owe the Intourist two hundred dollars each, and
unless we pay the debt we'll be sent back.
As usual, I was
the spokesman. I told them, that coming to Vladivostok we were paying
our own way for transportation and food and didn't owe anybody anything,
that we are not speculators in foreign exchange and don't possess dollars,
that we are "Robothzyi Narod" - which in the communist lingo
is the only criterion of purify and virtue and means those who gain their
livelihood by their own labor in contrast to social parasites.
I did not feel
that we had much to lose and ended by saying: The Intourist is the guilty
one for trying to force us to break the law, to deal with the black market
and to acquire dollars." They listened and left the room.
Through partially
drawn curtains we saw the last passengers leave the counter. I said to
Jan, "I guess that's it, we'll be going back," when one of the
Cossacks came in and said, "Get out and open your bags for inspection."
The manager shook
my hand with a friendly smile; this handshake put to rest all issues between
us and the Intourist.
Tired and bewildered,
we were the last two passengers to cross the gangway minutes before it
was removed. Russian pilot was on the boat; when he finally climbed down
the rope ladder to his launch and cast away the hawser, a great, happy
hurray sent him off -- we were on the international waters!
In
Japan
September 30, 1991
We were on the
Japanese boat, traversing the Sea of Japan from Vladivostok to Tsuruga.
Most of the details
of this two-nights-and-one day crossing are lost to me; my mental energy
and awareness were suddenly deflated like a pricked balloon; I was impassive,
indifferent to the activity around me.
The contrast between
the present sense of security and the tension and strain of the past weeks
of desperate effort to extricate myself from the hands of the communist
bureaucracy and to get out into the free world, is too great to describe.
When I am reviewing
now the events of those weeks: the confrontation with the secret police
in effort to get the exit visa; the problem with Intourist about payment
in dollars which I did not have; the decision to bypass the Intourist
and to steal across the 6500 miles of Russia and Siberia; the arrest in
Lido; the unexpected and alarming encounter with Intourist personnel on
the train to Moscow; the lucky strike in getting the ticket for the Trans-Siberian
train, totally against hope; then being detained by local police on one
of the Siberian stations, and hoping that the train will wait for me;
being forced to surrender into the hands of the Intourist in Vladivostok;
the interrogation by the military in Vladivostok harbour, who threatened
to send us back, and finally, unexpectedly, minutes before the boat's
departure being allowed to board her - I believe, all that would challenge
the strongest nervous resistance.
Today, looking
at the little finches sitting on a perch of the birdfeeder, glancing to
the left and to the right, checking their safety before they dare to pick
a grain, I see myself during the wartime travels when, with few exceptions,
constant vigilance was the order of the day.
From the short
voyage on the boat to Tsuruga my memory retained only few impressions.
We were sleeping
on hard mats under the deck, with several smoldering hibachis for heating.
Jan bitterly complaining of cold: "Feeling of weight is important,"
he muttered, piling on his blanket spare mats picked from the floor.
I remember lining
up for food, which consisted mostly of rice and curry.
I remember the
rude and insulting crew.
Tsuruga woke me
up instantly. Comparing to the bleak, depressing Vladivostok, Tsuruga
was for me strikingly colorful, with the April cherry blossoms, with flowery
kimonos, with the displays of stores full of goods. The town was pulsating
with life, streets were crowded with pedestrians, bikes, rickshaws, and
busses.
It felt as if I
found myself in a different, long forgotten world.
A small port of
30,000, Tsuruga is part of a cluster of cities: Kyoto, Nagoya, Osaka and
Kobe in the Southern port of the main island, Honshu.
Our stay in Tsuruga
was short; after being interviewed by the immigration, where an invisible
hand paid for each of us substantial landing fee (it turned out to be
the hand of the American. Jewish Distribution Committee), we continued
our journey to Kobe, which was going to be my home for the two months
of my stay in Japan.
The 80-mile road
to Kobe was leading through a picturesque country, between green hills
and an inland water. I saw farmers in coolie hats, bent, planting the
rice shoots on the water-covered, terraced fields.
Our life in Kobe
was managed by the Refugee Committee, created under aegis of the Polish
embassy in Tokyo. The Japanese did not interfere in our daily affairs
- their only interest was to get rid of us as soon as possible; after
all, we had only transit visas. And remember - this was 1941, the Pearl
Harbour year and they wouldn't want to have foreigners to witness their
war preparations.
During my stay
I was twice called to the police station and politely asked when and where
to I will be leaving. My answer was that I shall leave for US as soon
as I obtain my visa. Truly, I did not have any prospects for US, or for
any other visa, but they were satisfied with my answer and did not ask
any further questions.
Our quarters were
in a one-floor building, separated inside into four-person comportments
with common bathroom and kitchen. Again, we slept on mats, with a hibachi
in each compartment.
An interesting
witness to the strength of German nationalistic jingoism of those days,
and of their sense of superiority, was the behaviour of German Jews among
our group of refugees. Strongly assimilated, they acquired many traits
of those of their compatriots, who considered themselves culturally superior,
with particular contempt towards "Ost Juden," Eastern Jews -
those from Poland and Russia.
Hence, the refugees from Germany, forgetting the bloody Kristal Night
and other atrocities inflicted on them by the German mobs directed by
the Nazis, refused to have anything to do with us, Ost Juden, demanded
and obtained separate Quarters.
But let's forget about them, and return to the life in our temporary home.
Each of us was
receiving a daily allotment of ninety sen. A sen was one hundredth of
a yen, which in turn was equivalent to one seventh of American dollar;
hence our daily dole was worth nearly thirteen cents. This was supposed
to be for all personal expenses, including food.
Not everybody was
so limited fiscally. Many brought jewelry, or money, or both; a family
I knew, smuggled dollars inside of the grips of their flatware knives.
One person had a tooth cavity filled with a diamond.
I was not that
lucky and had to tighten my belt.
One of the first
things I did was to learn the name of numbers in Japanese, so, if the
price of the produce was not displayed, I could ask for it, and then,
often, haggle. The problem in communication was that when the merchant
said no, he nodded with a smile - something like: Yes, we have no bananas.
However I did not
starve. Most affordable was fish and cabbage, although boiling cabbage
made me unpopular in the communal kitchen. A few times I could even afford
a bowl of soup with one dumpling, in a local small eating place.
Kobe, a city of
three Quarter million, was an important port with a commercial traffic
to Pacific (as distinct from Tsuruga, a harbor at the Sea of Japan). It
is a twin city with Osaka, only twenty miles away.
Kobe is located
at the foot of picturesque hills dotted with Buddhist monasteries and
temples; many of those were also in the city proper. In one of the shrines
in town was a well known statue of Big Buddha. There were a number of
attractive parks.
Once I hiked on
the trails of Mount Maya and came down with several little booklets handed
to me by monks; the booklets, opening like an accordion had on each page
a square red stamp with Japanese sentences of prayer.
I had plenty of
time to sight-see the city, and some of the things I observed seemed strange
at the time, but they made sense to me eight months later, after Pearl
Harbour.
For instance, a bus would stop at the corner: the driver gets out, goes
to the back of the bus, opens the trunk, removes from a large box standing
on the sidewalk several four-foot blocks of wood, and throws them into
the trunk; that was the refueling station - the bus was running on the
gas generator powered by wood, to save gasoline. So were the taxis. One
could see in the morning an open garage with a long pipe stuck into the
exhaust of the taxi and a centrifugal pump whirling at the other end of
the pipe. They were starting the gas generator by blowing air into it.
When I stopped to watch it, I was shooed away.
There was a considerable
industrial activity; in the night one could see reflection of red flames
on the clouds from steel mills working twenty four hours a day.
Even though we
were not restricted in our movements, we were not allowed to enter the
harbor. And we were being watched.
I had in my possession
a spare straight razor with a beautifully encrusted mother-of-pearl handle.
I sold it and for the money I indulged in several luxuries. One of them
was a can of preserved pineapples, which I disposed of without much delay.
The other luxury was a trip to a city of ancient temples and castles,
Kyoto, a 1200 years old former capital of Japan.
During the 70 mile
train journey I was sitting opposite two Japanese gentlemen, who very
politely asked me for identification and who wanted to know the purpose
of my trip; after which they gave me useful touring information about
Kyoto. They spoke German.
Another example
of the attention the Japanese agents were giving to the presence of the
refugees was experienced by my future wife, Lydia.
She was working
with the refugee committee at the embassy in Tokyo, where she stayed in
the Daichi hotel. One evening she was sitting in the hotel lobby, talking
in Polish with several embassy employees. After they left, a Japanese
man approached her and started a conversation also in Polish! He used
to be a member of the Japanese embassy in prewar Poland and learned the
language. He did not hide the fact that he was there to observe the activities
of the Poles in Tokyo.
Another luxury
which I could afford then was to visit some of many charming tiny tea
houses, where over a cup of tea one could listen to music of one's choice,
including classical music.
On the street where
we lived was a public bathhouse; in the evening we could hear a shuffling
noise of many wooden clogs of people going there. Each was dressed in
kimono and was holding in the palm of the hand a bowl with soap and towel.
We were not given
tourist pamphlets with information about the local customs - I had to
learn the hard way.
I remember once
in a bus I offered my seat to an elderly woman; this was met with angry
shouts from the men in the bus; she was embarrassed and declined my offer.
Another time during
my visit to the Polish embassy in Tokyo, I was in the bus watching passing
cavalcade of the emperor Hirohito. I was angrily instructed to turn my
head away - gazing at the emperor was a sacrilege.
When we talk about
Japanese social customs, there is another one worth mentioning.
I was shown a substantial
building with an ornate door; this was an official city bordello. On both
sides of the door were framed under glass, waist up, modest photographs
of the hostesses of this institution. By the Western taste the faces were
not attractive.
In front of the
door were several pair of footware of the patrons.
I was told that
many of the girls were plying this trade temporarily in order to save
money for the dowry; if so, then apparently this was not considered dishonorable,
since they displayed their pictures in public.
I want to make
a digression here.
In pre-war Poland
prostitution was also legal. The ladies were registered and each carried
a small book where the periodic medical checks were recorded; if any was
found infected with V.D., she had to submit to medical treatment, before
her health was certified by a stamp in her book.
Withholding any
opinion about the morality of the Polish system, one could not fail to
conclude that such system must have prevented the spread of venereal diseases
owing to medical control, must have freed the police from chasing the
prostitutes and their clients and relieved the courts and the penal system
from the additional burden of enforcing, mostly in vain, laws against
prostitution.
It would also free
the girls from the servitude to the pimps, whom otherwise they would need
for bail and protection.
Through the intermediary
of the Polish Government in exile in London, the embassy in Tokyo made
contacts with several countries, among others with England, Canada, Australia,
New Zealand and US in an effort to obtain visas for the refugees. All
of those countries were dragging their feet, finding it difficult to absorb
among themselves the 2000 Polish citizens. The least flexible was the
U.S. Even the strongest affidavit from an American sponsor would not open
the door, as long as one had relatives behind Iron Curtain, or in the
German occupied territory.
This was exactly
what happened to Lydia, who was sponsored by a friend of her family, a
well-to-do American patent attorney. Her application was rejected off
hand, when she disclosed that her parents were in occupied Poland.
The final outcome
of the embassy effort was only about 200 visas to Canada, Australia, New
Zealand and Burma. There was a trickle to England.
Among the refugees
were formed professional groups, such as engineers, doctors and lawyers,
each lobbying the embassy for a share of the visas.
I traveled to Tokyo
twice on behalf of the engineers' group. The train was slow, and it took
over ten hours to cross the 400 miles from Kobe to Tokyo. The unforgettable,
most picturesque sight was in the early morning, when the train made a
semicircle around the Mount Fuji, the sacred, 12,400 feet Japanese landmark.
In places we came as close as 12 miles to the majestic, snow covered peak.
On the stations
one could buy from vendors walking along the train disposable lunch boxes,
with neatly arranged chunks of food: raw fish, vegetables, fruit and sweets
ready for supplied short chopsticks. One could also buy hot tea and it
must have been a very hot tea, because I vaguely remember that I carelessly
burned my lips and tongue the first time I bought it.
I should comment
here on the manner many Japanese - to my observation mostly farmers -
were resting. One could see them waiting for the bus, squatting at the
curb. I saw several people on the train, squatting, with their feet on
the bench. Some of them were dozing in this position.
Finally, the group
of engineers obtained visas, some to Australia, others, including me,
to Canada.
The fare was paid
by the Refugee Committee. Each of us was allowed to exchange our yens
into dollars at a special, favourable rate. I had too little money to
take advantage of the offer, so I borrowed yens from a friend, exchanged
them for dollars at a special rate, sold part of them at a normal market
rate, returned my debt in yens and was left with the gain of Six American
dollars in my pocket - I felt rich.
One ought to be
a lion and a fox, advises Machiavelli - I was only a fox.
It was end of May,
when I boarded in Yokohama the Heian Maru, which was sailing to Vancouver,
British Columbia.
Free at last!
P.S. Six months
later the Japanese air force attacked Pearl Harbor.
Life
in British Columbia - l
Feb., 1990
My arrival to British
Columbia in 1941 was not a result of my free choice. I would have been
happy to accept any visa which would open the door to a free world, and
there was only one in four of us refugees in Japan who were lucky to get
out before Pearl Harbour.
However, if I had
a choice, I could not adopt a better continent that my luck placed me
in.
In our parents'
home we, three brothers, were always avid readers, and the American Indian
lore, the gold rush stories, the Quick-draw outlaws, the gamblers with
the beautiful Queens of the saloons, the Bufallo Bill adventures were
prominent on our reading lists. And the Deerslayer, Chingachgook and Um:as
were as big heroes for us as the Three Musketeers and the Count of Monte
Christo were. Therefore, for me to be suddenly transplanted on the American
continent, and particularly to the "Wild West" was as miraculous
as it was for Alice to find herself in the Wonderland.
Of course I arrived
here too late to see all that history in making, and perhaps just as well,
since I was already in my late thirties - hardly the age for adventure.
Still, the romantic mystery of these lands remained, and had great influence
on our lives there.
For years to come we spent every vacation, every free time touring the
hinterland of Vancouver, where we lived. We visited bays and coves, doing
some fishing, or just hiking and visiting Indian villages; we often stayed
in ranches, where we spent hours on horseback (Western saddle of course),
roaming plains and hills, and even occasionally participating in cattle
round-up.
(How the European city dwellers, who never mounted a horse, took to "cowboying"
can only be explained by the strength of the fascination acquired early
from the books. Similar influence of romantic literature prompted Don
Quichote to fight the windmills.
One year, I think
it was 1945, we decided to go to d'Arcy, a village located close to Southern
tip of the Anderson Lake, about 90 miles North of Vancouver, on the border
of the Caribou country. The place was practically inaccessible other than
by single track railway, setting out daily from North Vancouver. The train
was short and had two locomotives, one pulling, the other pushing, both
laboring hard when crossing the Coastal Mountain Range. It made frequent
stops at numerous Indian villages, and at every stop scores of Indians
were boarding, while others were leaving the train. They had the privilege
of travelling free and kept on constantly visiting their cousins in other
villages.
D'arcy was a small hamlet, with a typical old church and cemetery, inhabited
mostly by Indians, where women were weaving baskets and knitting sweaters
and most men working in logging camps around.
Our small hotel was close to the railway station on the shore of the lake.
We were spending our time riding horses and hiking. Existing tennis court
was in disrepair and could not be used and the surrounding forest was
very dense and could not be penetrated without a machete.
We enjoyed climbing the fairly steep, thinly wooded slope of the mountain
on the other side of the tracks, even though this was a bear country.
However the general wisdom was that the bears will not attack humans,
unless one would surprise a female with the cubs.
Of course, as always,
there were exceptions to the rules. We met there a railway worker, retired
for "health reason" who showed us deep impression left by a
friendly pat on the shoulder by a bear he met in the forest. He survived
using old ruse - by playing dead; after a while the bear lost interest.
"It was a very long while for me," said the man. .
Another route for
a walk was along the bank of the lake, between the rails and the shore.
We were surprised to see there patches of wild strawberries so popular
in Poland, but not common here.
One day we walked along the lake further than usual, past the railway
tunnel and shortly afterwards we noticed down at the lake a small hut,
separated from the shore by a narrow garden. This was the only sign of
human existence in this area, except for our inn and a small post office)
booth at the station.
We went down and knocked at the door. An old man let us into a neat, simply
furnished room, the only room in the house. He was a retired logger; he
seemed to enjoy his solitude. With pride he showed us his vegetable and
flower garden, and spent some time discussing with Lydia fine points of
gardening. His shopping center was the Simpson Sears catalogue and the
Post Office down at the station.
Lydia was concerned:
"You are alone here, what would happen if you fell sick?" 'she
asked: "Oh, there is no problem," he said "Every day, when
the train passes, I am at the track and exchange greetings with the crew;
if they would not see me there, they would stop the train and look me
up."
This story touched
my heart; it confirmed what I always believed that this country of pioneers
was great in more ways than one. With the vast area and small population
everybody counted, everyone was important; and in trouble, or sickness
- your neighbor, or a stranger on the highway was his brother's keeper.
This was the way
I felt then, 45 years ago. And today.? I don't know, I am not there, and
our world is changing fast.
A Post Scriptum:
Both our children were born in Vancouver. The hospitals were efficient
and free. And for every child we were receiving monthly several dollars
- milk money - they called it. The checks were issued to the mother's
name only.
Life In British Columbia -2
Feb.1990
It was Summer,
1955; Alan was three years old, Joan was eight. When it came to make the
plans for our vacation, Lydia decided to stay home with the little boy.
"Take Joan and go to a ranch" she said, "Joan will enjoy
some horseback riding". This was what I did. A small guest ranch
located at the Horse Lake was recommended to us. Horse lake is at the
100 Mile House on the Caribou highway. The name "100 Mile House"
should not be taken literally. The Caribou highway starts where the Fraser
River Canyon road ends, at Lytton, and from there to 100 Mile House is
close to 200 miles. The lake is on the parallel 300 miles North of Vancouver.
I left the family
car with Lydia and packed Joan and the fishing rod on the bus. Travel
on the Fraser River Canyon Highway is always exciting, no matter how many
times one made the trip; however after many hours on the bus we were quite
tired when we arrived at sunset to the ranch. Accommodation was comfortable;
we were assigned, as others were, a separate family cottage.
The Horse Lake is a narrow, nine miles long, body of water, stretching
in East-West direction. Our ranch was located right at the water, over
a small bay, where several rowboats and a motorboat were moored. The main
building had a lobby and a dining room, where guests met at mealtimes.
Also at 11 O'clock at night the owners, a pleasant young couple, entertained
their guests with hot chocolate and cookies. The activities were limited
to horses and fishing. That was all we wanted. Weather was good but not
hot. The evenings and mornings were crisp. During our stay the lake was
calm, although this Northern area was notorious of the fact that within
minutes and without warning stormy winds could strike bringing dark clouds
and churning the water of the lake.
In the dining room we were seated at a small table with a couple, as if
especially chosen for us table companions. They were a young pleasant
looking lady with a ten years old (as we found out later) son. She was
a friendly, outgoing person, and the boy seemed to be past the age when
they would not tolerate company of girls.
Joan was quite
taken by the boys' attention and I considered the unexpected company of
an attractive woman as an additional feature of the place. Both were good
riders and so was Joan, who rode horses previously at Summer camps. Helen
(let us use this name) was a legal secretary, divorced after
years of unhappy mariage. She admitted that working full time and without
a man in the house she had some difficulty in managing the young boy.
In spite of that she seemed to be enjoying herself, was full of elan and
had good sense of humor. There were not many guests on the ranch. and
of those not all were riding horses, so that most of the time we were
confined to our foursome. . The country was thinly wooded and sparsely
populated, and there was a lot of open space to roam. We seemed to have
conditions for a perfect, carefree vacation.
However it was
not going to end carefree, and this was for more than one reason. One
day at the table next to ours a new guest arrived. He was perhaps younger
than I, but his serious mien seemed to add to his age. Since he was sitting
alone at his table we invited him to join us.
After we exchanged
our names it turned out that we knew about each other, although we never
met. He was an engineer, manager of a Vancouver sales office of a large
manufacturing company with headquarters in Montreal. On behalf of the
consulting office I was representing, I often was selecting and ordering
equipment from his company. I was dealing over the phone with other engineers
in his office, and he knew that.
Having many common
professional and business interests we spent some time talking to each
other. Apparently, having need of a listener, he started talking about
his private life. He became a widower recently amid dramatic circumstances;
he came here to relax, to be away from anything which would remind him
of his tragedy.
This, I thought
to myself, is a great coincidence: we have here two people who may need
each other, who may help each other, but don't know that; in fact Helen
did not seem to be interested in the newcomer. As outgoing as she was
she was rather reserved toward him. I decided to sound her out. "Why
aren't you trying to be more friendly with Ron (this is his name for this
story)?" She read my mind: "He is depressingly gloomy and cheerless,
besides I think he drinks, this is not the kind of person I should be
interested in."
"Helen,"
I said, "This man for the last five years was taking care of his
mentally unstable wife, wife who finally ended by suicide and died in
his arms. He needs time to stand on his feet and learn to smile again;
he is in charge of a large office and is well regarded by his co-workers
and the business community. He is alone and tries to cope with his burden."
These were my words
as close as I can remember. She was listening and did not answer. I believe
she was moved. To make the story short - before we left the ranch they
announced their engagement. From then on the mood of our group changed.
The couple became totally preoccupied with each other. She stopped riding
horses, they were going for long walks, or taking the car and disappearing
for hours. Our equestrian squad was reduced to a trio - the two kids with
me. I lost two companions, but I patted myself on the shoulder - I exchanged
an innocent and pleasant flirt for a successful matchmaking. This should
suffice as a good deed for the rest of the year. Lydia and I were invited
to their wedding and maintained contact with them, not for long though
- shortly afterwards he was transferred to Montreal to assume the position
of the Vice-president for sales, and we lost track of them.
However, I am ahead
of myself - we are still at the Horse Lake, and this is what happened
next. One day, after dinner, when the sky was still bright, the lake was
smooth and fish were biting, I took my fishing rod and with Joan got into
a rowboat for a short fishing expedition. But, no sooner we moved out
of our bay onto the lake, when without warning the sky darkened and a
strong gale struck. I attempted to turn around and return to the shore,
but the wind was strong and carried the boat away from the bay onto the
open waters.
I managed to keep the coune more or less parallel to the land, hoping
to be able to slowly approach the shore. However we were separated from
the land by a wide strip of marshes, dense with tall bulrushes, stretched
as far as I could see along the bank. So nothing could be done but trying
to keep the coune, not to be swept away from the shoreline toward the
center of the lake.
This free ride
lasted for a long while; it was getting dark, and the dusk was setting
in, when I noticed ahead an ill defined wooden structure, reaching from
the shore into the lake. When closer I recognized it, to be a broken-
down dock; part of it, a horizontal beam, was stretched across the water
in front of me. I decided to use it as a stop, and the only way to do
it without overturning the boat was to meet it head on. I tried to slow
down using oar, still, the jar was strong enough to loosen my grip on
one oar, which gracefuly floated away.
I pushed the boat to a vertical pillar and tied it there, checked the
depth of the water with the oar; put Joan piggy-back on my shoulders and
waded to the shore, steadying myself by holding the beams. Water was chest
deep and cold. I helped Joan to climb on the platform, then clambered
on it myself. The platform was small, thickly covered with big chunks
of bark and with wood slabs. This was part of an abandoned small sawmill.
In the forties
and fifties such small, temporary sawmills were being erected by entrepreneurs,
called scavengers, who moved into abandoned logged areas and salvaged
"small" logs left behind (those days logs below foot and a half
in diameter were considered small) and either cut boards on the spot,
or brought the logs to the place where highway existed and there erected
a temporary sawmill. Afterwards they dismantled, carted away the machinery
and left behind all debris. These created fire hazard, and years later
loggers were required to clean the area after the operation. Now these
leftovers turned out to be life savers for us.
It was already
pitch black and getting cold. There was not a single light to be seen
on the horizon. I crawled on the beams toward the solid ground, only to
find out that it was soggy and possibly a swamp, too risky at night to
walk on. In the meantime it started to rain, not heavy rain, just a drizzle.
The situation was far from pleasant.
By that time, with total darkness, Joan was really scared, "Daddy"
she apologized" I hope that you don't mind that I am scared".
"Of course not, I understand. But don't worry, pretty soon the wind
will die down and we will be returning." I was not so sure and was
scared too: I knew that in the cold night, As wet as I was, if the windstorm
lasts through the night I may not be able to bring Joan to safety ever.
Using slabs I arranged
for Joan a sort of bunk and covered her with layers of wood and bark to
protect her from wind and keep her warm. I laid down on her windward side,
built a wind barrier and covered myself with bark and slabs too. I could
not read my wristwatch and did not have any notion of time. But the wind
did subside and the sky started clearing; I carried Joan to the boat and
was limping using one oar on the way back. I could see very faint outline
of the shore and my only concern now was not to miss our small inlet.
However at one point I noticed light and people moving around - that was
it! When we touched the land our hosts were just boarding the motorboat.
They did not say a word to us. I don't know if they became speechless
when they saw us emerging from darkness, like ghosts returning from the
other world, or they blamed us for the panic raised by our disappearance.
Perhaps both. It was close to midnight. We went to the dinning room for
a cup of hot chocolate. Joan fell asleep as soon as she touched the pillow.
I took a hot shower before bed.
That night, when
I did not show up for hot chocolate at 11, and somebody mentioned that
we were seen going towards the lake with the fishing rod, and when upon
checking they did not find us in our cottage, they were seized by fear:
what could they expect to happen to a small rowboat on the lake for over
four hours during severe windstorm?
Next day, somebody brought back my abandoned fishing rod, but I lost stomach
for fishing - not there anyway. Besides, these were last two days of our
stay and I decided to take it easy. Back in Vancouver my problem was to
answer a simple question: "How was your Vacation?" There was
fun. There were serious moments, and there were grave moments. So, how
was our Vacation?" The answer is: unforgettable.
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